Deleted previous post. I tried my best to make her like me, she doesn't then fuck it (: .

Tired, mentally and physically.
I feel like I'm the only one saving his life.
He doesn't even wanna try to stop smoking.
And I try so hard to make sure that he doesn't do it, make him promise, swear, cross his heart.
I even have to resort to praying when I have no god to pray to.
I think, I'm gonna give up on him, I mean, there's no point if I'm the only one that's trying. It takes 2 hands to clap. If he tells me he wanna stop, then he'll have to prove it cause I'm not gonna believe in words anymore. Its gonna be all actions and for bloody's sake. Stop promising me anything if you're don't plan to uphold that promise cause I can't take disappointment.

And if you do stumble upon this blog by chance, you better stop. Cause then I won't be your cousin anymore, you'll just be someone I thought I knew.

Okay, I had enough. My life really sucks. And it sucks more, when you're tired and still smile.

Woke up @ 6. Kept begging mum for like extra 5 mins till 630 :x. Then called Bj O: , that guy was supposed to morning call me, but it became me morning called him. So took bus to Tampines Inter. 67 to school, Bj was supposed to meet me on the bus, but he was a step late. Hohz, so all the way to school! Then blahblah, had audition. Guess what. I failed -.-'', Jeez. I hate failure. Okay, I've lost mood to type. Mood swings these days .___.'' ! Dinner party later, its gonna be boring, I'm doubledouble sure. Its gonna be one of those dinner.


- If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you made me smile, I would have the whole night sky in the palm of my hand.