Sometimes, maybe like now. I can't tell the true from the fake ones. Maybe Weilin's right, "Sometimes people who're always around you physically, doesn't mean they're with you in heart." Makes sense? I guess so, quality over quantity.

If you something you want to say to me, say it to my face. Don't pass letters around, and bitch among yourselves.

Really mentally tired to post.

I wished you could read my mind, but. If you did, wow. I mean, things won't be the same.

I'm walking on sunshine :).

Today, some stuffs in the morning? O: . Forgottt! And, Mrs Goh doesn't wanna return me my book :(. I swear, if she did. I WILL NEVER EVER EVER READ A BOOK FOR ANY OTHER LESSON!!!!! But she won't :(! Its a book Cass gave me :@. MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT TO TOP IT OFF :(. I need more books to read. I want a personal library :>


Fyi, I got really pissed off. TODAY. AT. A TIME.
Bloody dick, you also cannot. So stfu :)

Ohwow. Didn't post for so long cause.. well. Was busy :X.

I'm sick now. And hungry.

This is a world crisis.

I can't post anymore, I can't remember anything.

Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you’ve lost your way
What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
to fight and never walk away
so hear I am - still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can

Was at grandparent's place just now. Watched Percy Jackson & The Lightning Thief :). Not bad, not badz. ;D

Moodswings these days, what is wrong with me? ==.

I want a tumblr account :D

FORGOT TO BLOG THIS

I wanna wish my month 21 sisters, Zizi and Wewe. Peizi and Wenhui respectively. HAPPY FIRST MONTH <3.

According to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.
According to you
I'm difficult,
hard to please,
forever changing my mind.
I'm a mess in a dress,
can't show up on time,
even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you.

God, so bloody hyperz now :D! Ohwell, Weilin is facing the wrath of my hyperness. LOL, like, super random :D. There's a limit to how much you can tease her though .____. , tsktsk.

Anyways, I LOVE YOU lah, Weilin :). NOW, -tears of joy from Weilin-. LOL, okay. Enough crap :).

Shit fuck, tired ttm now :( , Idk what to do. And guess what. Gff knows why without me telling her whats going on and! Weilin guessed right on her first try. LOL.

I don't know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like every part of my body is broken too. - Chloe Woodward.

Damn it, I'm seriously not in the mood to post now, feel so "insulted" and all that crap. Having moodswings. Damnshit, I see the world in a very different light now.

Do I really have such a bad personality? Cause it seems, it's that bad.

The touch of your hand say you'll catch me wherever I fall.
You say it best when you say nothing at all.

Awesome song :).

There is band tomorrow, 9-4. Lets see, thats like.. 7 hours :D.

Okay, damn. I'm not gonna post cause the holidays are pretty boring. School is fucked up with their budget shirts, and they have this hope that their students will wear it with smiles on their faces on friday. Jeez.

Anddddd!!
When you start a diet, you'll probably lose weight in places you don't wanna lose first. Totally true :)

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far we are so close

I'm surprised if you aren't. I'm actually doing homework o_____o! Odd enough. Lazy to type, lazy to post :). I shall carry on doing homework, surf youtube, search for pictures all at the same time :D

I couldn't stick to my desicion of not posting :x. I still came back, to post that lyrics up :). God .__. , its unlucky when someone sees you in an ugly state. :(

Maybe were friends
Maybe we're more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you

Damn it. Bloody lazy to upload pictures Wewe did for me on msn. Ohwell, guess you people just have to wait (: . There might be band on thursday O: . Gogoooo! I wanna blow my tuba :(, its been like, sooo long :<. So today, went movie with Amelia N. and Yeetheng to watch Alice in Wonderland. The 3D one cheat money, there isn't a lot of parts that 3D features can fit through. But, since my brother watched beforehand, we watched the 2D one. As usual, movies have their twist in the story, and well. You watch yourself if you wanna know what :). The movie was awesomee :D. So after that, planned to slack around Tampines after calling Weiling for zillions of time. But, in the end, I called her for the last time, and viola! She picked up, so, sort of cancelled plans to slack cause I had to go over to meet Weiling @ east point. So, was supposed to meet some of her friends .__. , I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me; I just didn't have the courage to meet them. Jeez, so after mustering courage and stalling time by buying my book (Jennifer Weiner - In Her Shoes), I went down to meet down. Well, they weren't half bad. Pretty friendly and funny. Okay, so well, after thatttt. Went to Weiling's place. Mood dropped to negative zero. Don't fucking ask why. Jeez, wanted to slack around Tampines or meet Cheehoe, but whatever. I thought about it again, and decided I need a time out, alone, so yeah. Walked around 201, before heading home, the walk home was really quiet, which I absolutely love. So yeah, mood went slightly up after that :), damnhell. Holidays suck when you're at home with no dates to date. Jeez, soooooooooo! I'm bored (:

Told you I have a picture!



Zizi, tag on blog T.T

Shall not blog about something :). Belly knows what happen yesterday night doesn't she? :B

O: . School's teeshirt suck. School logo is like, in the middle of your left and right breast. Wtf? And, the collar of green serious suck. Overall, it sucks. School is mother fucking budget, give us ALL wrong sizes ==. I seriously wonder how some people gonna fit. I mean, you give a fatass, xs? You sure that guy can fit? Imagine he move a bit, and woah. Teeshirt rips -.-''!

Zizi, if you see this. You're the only one okay.

She's so special, her tag reply to me is a msn-picture :). So my reply shall beee! You'll see @ the end of the post!!
My heart's into two. I feel as though I'm waiting for the sky to drop just for you to say something you used to say to me. ( I don't mean it in the negative way, but is it that impossible? /: )

Found a reallly interesting old note on fb :). Shall post it here and change the answers :x

Ohwell, I've posted it here, but it was wayyyy too long, so its on facebook. :).

And I'm done :D. God. I need my ears D:

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say



:D. I loveee you zizi-pig :}

Tahhaaa :D. Many thanks to Wewee! For lending me the msn conv to type thatt!

} Tags replied :).

Today was (ironically) fun :D. Went out with Jaslin after school to check phone pricings, then slacked with her around Tampines area :D. Waited for our kings and queens to arrive :]. Didn't really talk much, since I barely know them. But, they seem pretty friendly :). Bused home with Carlyn. I don't wanna say details :x. Oh, and I bought a topaz house shirt, CAUSEEE. Sapphire was out of stock. And I desperately needed an extra PE. So yeah.

I'm starting to believe; just like you. Maybe it might last.

Don't you hate it if you have a feeling for something, but you never voice it out. And a person comes and tell you something, and hey, you're right. But, if its something good then okay. But, if its about a completely different thing; its bad. Very bad.

Screw the woman's intuition

My heart's breakingg!!! Its having some sort of nervous breakdown. Its not functioning right. I NEED MY TWIN, I NEED MY PRICELESS. I NEED MY ZIZI AND WEWE D: . And to top it off, PARTY A AND PARTY B KEEPS FIGHTING :(. I'm losing my "f".

} Tags replied :)

Juliet Simms: I'm not coming back, I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak, but you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt; now the rain is just
Washing you out of my hair

And out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world,
With so many thousands of feet off the ground
I'm over you now I'm at home in the clouds
That are towering over your head

Alex Gaskarth: Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm going to ask her to marry me

Even though she doesn't believe in love,
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
That are filling his gut

Remembering Sunday - All Time Low.

Awesome song, (: .
Not really in the mood to post, so I'm just gonna post this short paragraph, and, I know that I wished you looked.

I don't know howwww put he managed to manipulate you, but whatever. I just want you to know, there's more it seems to just a mere question. Something happened before; awww. Silly me, I can't tell you, cause you'll probably won't believe me. But I wished you'll sort of, miraculously know.

So here's this; What you know can't hurt you.

But we're all gonna be hurt in the end, its only before or later; a matter of time.

PS: Tags replied :]

So baby keep my heart beat b-beat beat beating.

Post later, please tag. ):

God. So bloody tired. Talked to Peeeeee on the phone last night, we talked for 25 minutes. Then we both slept for 35 minutes WITH THE PHONE LINE STILL ON. Jeez, my phone vibrated, so I woke up, then I decided to hang up :X. I could actually hear his breaths. Jeez, mighty stalkish.

I'm lazy to carry typingggg. Howz? :( .

Shall post LATERZ.

Idk what the fuck you want, but whatever. You didn't bother to ask, and YOU ONLY HEARD ONE FUCKING SIDE OF THE STORY. So, I honestly now. Am tired of making you un-angry to me. So, screw you.

After school, stay back. Had fun :D. Bussed home, I was a shoulder pillow D: . Awwz :).

- I hope you're fucking happy she's pissed -.-'' I don't mean to say that.

Ohya!! And my tagboard, is at my "profile" section, its at the Leave a message Its comments now.

I think my heart's broken. I need a heart doctor.

I'll post later, don't move away.

Isn't it ironic that we ignore those who adore us , adores the one who ignore us , hurt those who love us , love the ones who hurt us ? - Credits to Jesreen.

Gah, I'm trying my best. To make things normal, but they aren't working.

And, I love my priceless, Weilin muchmuchz. :).

Thanks for just now, being there for me, listening to my problems and helping me. I heartheartluvluv you okay? Precious priceless. ♥

PS: You better read that dedication and cry for me tears of joy or touched-ness alright. :B.

Edit again!!

I decided, maybe I think too much about life. I should just let go everyday's worries. I don't wanna be a worry freak anymore, I wanna be hyper >:B.

Urgh, I honestly. Hate myself.

Went band today, reached school @ 7. Fell asleep for 10 minutes before some came, talk and talk. Went up and packed. After band, went to mac with Regina, something got on my nerve. Stfu about me being fat. I DON'T SEE YOU WITH A MODEL'S FIGURE. So if you don't have a model's figure, do the world a favor, and stfu. Right, after eating, went to city hall. And went to peninsula plaza, wrong place ): . It was Peninsula SHOPPPING centre, just beside the hotel :). Then, after Regina and I bought my bag, mrt-ed back to Tampines and shopped ;D. Then now home. Gonna watch anime now.

Editt.

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with my life that just keeps getting worse and worse. I so desperately need a private blog. Right, maybe I should. Look @ para two. Cause I have so many things slowly accumulating within me. People complain and till now, I don't know what is it about. People thinking I'm fat, which I'm desperately trying to think I'm not. People not talking "normally" to me, which I am fretting over plans and ideas to make it normal again. People deciding not to trust me. People.. ugrhh! This list can just carry on and on. I really need a listening ear to pour everything out to, but when I start with the one that gives me a heartache and a headache, at the end of the day, they'll probably be thinking I'm a bitch, which I'm also trying to avoid. My computer's speaker is down, which means I can't hear any songs to kill my mood. And I keep venting anger on my innocent dad. And the top it off, I have to wear this pathetic smile everyday.

Then again, maybe I shouldn't have a private blog, I should just bottle everything up, and when time comes, I'll just can't take the pressure and die. Its the ugliest way to, but yet easy enough, just don't tell anyone anything. Simple. As. That.

I desperately need a new life. And, it sucks when there's no one there for you when down. Suck. Bigtime.

I've got like, so many things in my heart that I'm just dying to say out. But, I just have no one to scream to, some people are like, they don't even know anything from start. Some people lack certain details that I can't share, cause its not just mine to share. I'm dying on the inside. People complained about me, people gossip about me, people don't trust me, people dislike me.

Honestly, I'm just really tired. And I guess, I feel really empty. I can't stand up on my own two feet and look at the world, cause the next thing I'll know, I'll fall. Sometimes, I rather dream about what I wished the world I lived in be, I control everything. Everything goes my way. But when reality gives me a double check and suck me back into it, it sucks. Big time.

Urgh, I seriously need to get a new life. And the same time, books.

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

So what happens when your hero leaves you alone. I'm breaking into pieces, so bloody stressed out.

I can't save pictures from flickr into my computer!!! Ohwell, good pictures shall not be shared. HAHAHAH.

I'm tired, please. For the love of god girl. Grow up -.-''. Stop being pissed over the slightest thing.
Grhh, I don't mean what I just typed. But whatever. I'm lazy to cancel ^^. I think, I'mma stop posting. Till, sunday? :D

I have this sudden urge to pierce my tongue or nose. But urges are tolerable. Its stupid to have that urge. I don't want holes in my body. Period.

I hate the feeling I'm having now :/. It kills me just to think about it. God, my life is stumbling down on me, the whole world is on my shoulders; its weighing me down /: . I desperately need to get a new life, and while at it, destroy this, and just get. A listening ear D: .

Found a picture, but I can't upload it. Not sure why :/. Here's the link :D.